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Name: ratna
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Tuesday, June 09, 2009

TRAGIC!!!!

Last week, I was browsing youtube, wasting my time in the computer lab, when I stumbled across a Korean movie 'Frozen Flower'. I was curious at first, so I watched the trailer and read all the comments posted by users. After that, I tried to search the movie on the site, and luckily someone posted it. THANK YOU!!!!

Anyway, I spent nearly 2 hours watching the movie and I felt so depressed afterwards. Why? Coz the ending was tragic. The story is about a king in Korea, who was in love with his Chief Bodyguard since he was young. Although he was married, the King was unable to touch the Queen intimately. Moreover, there was a pressure from his own people to have an heir so that the kingdom would not fall into the hand of other conquerers.

The King was frustated coz he could only be intimate with the Chief. As for the Chief, since he was young, he was always with the King, thus he did not know other 'pleasures'. The King never asked the Chief about his feelings because he was sure that the Chief loved him deeply. To solve this heir problem, the King asked the Chief to bed the Queen. He was so sure that the Chief would not be swayed by heterosexual pleasure. However, he was proved wrong, as The Chief, who did not know about this kind of pleasure before, became addicted to the Queen. the Queen, who was neglected by the King all these years, also found pleasure and acceptance from the Chief, whom she loathed at first because of his closeness to the King. Thus, the affair began. Meeting secretly, even after the King forbid them to. As a result, The Queen was indeed pregnant, although she did not dare to inform the King as she was affraid that the King would take her child away.

Of course, as everyone knows, no secrets last forever. The King discovered them in an intimate position. Heartbroken, he ordered the guards to castrate the Chief, with the Queen watching. After that, the Chief was sent to jail, waiting for his execution, but the King was willing to forgive the Chief as long as he promised not to meet with the Queen again and always stayed by his side. The Chief refused, and this fueled the King to make the punishment even harsher.

The Queen of course did not give up in rescuing her lover. She ordered other guards to help him escape. The escape was a succeed but the Chief insisted on going back to rescue the Queen. When he managed to force an entrance and came face to face with the King, The King lied and told him that the Queen is dead. Filled with grief, the Chief fought with the King, until they both meet their death. Yet, before his last breath, the Chief managed to take a look at the Queen. One thing though, after he looked at the Queen and the Queen was taken away from the scene, the Chief turned around and spent his last breath looking at the King who was already dead.

Now, this ending was the one scene I did not understand because during their fight, the King asked the Chief if he ever thought of the King as his love, and the Chief said no, never even once. Yet, he spent his last moment looking at the King. I would like to assume that the Chief indeed was in love with the King, and he used the Queen only to satisfy his physical pleasure. Hah! This was what I assumed.

This movie ended with tragedy and yet, usually I really do not like tragedy as it makes me depressed, but this one film makes me think and feel for the King. He really trusted the Chief and yet, he was betrayed.

I remember this comment on the video, "The King experienced the worst betrayal a man can feel, his wife with his lover." This statement is so true!!! I cannot blame the King because he has duty to his people to marry although he knew that he was a homosexual. And I also pity the Queen, not only she was trapped in a loveless marriage, she was also married to a homosexual man. How must she feel when her own husband refused to touch her intimately and asked his bodyguard to do it instead?

I mean, this is a sad love story that explored the unthinkable for the first time. Although there are many movies about gays, this was one film that was made beautifully and with deep meaning. In other words, you can say that the scenes in the movie really happened in real life, where some gay men (especially in Asian cultures), have to deny their true self in order to conform with society. I know the Western world are more open to this, yet, this did not mean that the society accepted them. They still condemn this kind of lifestyle. I really really love this movie for all its meaning and all its beautiful scenes. The actors in this movie did a very good job in portraying all the characters, and I can say that my favorite character is the King, as you can really feel his pain. As for the Chief, the actor gave me the feeling that he was unsure about his own sexual orientation and after meeting the Queen, he began to feel different kind of pleasure as he grew up knowing only 'one' type of pleasure.

All in all, there was only one thing I could say about the movie, that is I REALLY LOVE IT!!! AND I REALLY RECOMMEND IT TO ALL KOREAN MOVIE FANS!!!!!

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From left: Jo In Seong (The Chief), Ju Jin Mo (The King), Song Ji Hyo (The Queen)

Song_Ji_Hyo  Song Ji Hyo (From Princess Hours)

Joo_Jin_Mo  Joo Jin Mo (200 Pound Beauty)

jis111 Jo In Seong (Memories in Bali, Dirty Carnival)

 


Wednesday, January 07, 2009

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Well, that's all, folks!!!! CYA ^^



SYDNEY!!!!









































Saturday, October 25, 2008

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By Sean Kingston
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Growing Up....

For me, part of growing up is more responsibilities rest on your shoulder. And I really feel that. I feel that reaching 21, everyone expects more of you. Back in my neighborhood, there's another family who sent their children abroad to study. They went to UK to study, although their real motive is to work and earn money. My mom and dad always heard the gossips that they have become so successful and stuff. And they always ask the Q "Why until now I haven't succeeded yet?"

My mom kept telling me this thing. I felt that growing up, parents expect a lot from you. From relationships to work. I know they have good intentions of wanting to see their children succeed, but when they keep pushing and pushing, it will just be a burden to the children. I always tell my mom that she has to be patient, it's not that I don't want to, but this is my final semester and I don't want to fuck this up. I don't want to repeat another semester. It'll waste a lot of money. I know this sounds like I'm finding reasons to avoid responsibility, but it really isn't like that. I also want to get a job and help my parents. I just feel that this is the most important time ever so I want to concentrate on this 1st.

Yes, I'm babbling a lot, I still have a lot to say though, but I can't put it in words, being a sociology and behavioral studies student, words and language become one thing that has to be highly criticized coz not all words express people's thought. Ok, STOP! I have to stop myself!
Anyway, now I have to go and study again...Wish me luck!! ^^


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Graduation?!?!?!

Can I?!? Will I?!?! This question is always on my mind. I'm really afraid that I couldn't graduate. I don't want to disappoint my parents who already sacrificed so much to let me study in Australia. Sometimes, it really hurts me whenever my mom calls and urges me to come back home, to give up everything and just open up some business back in my hometown. I don't want to, but I also don't want to make my mom sad. Really, I felt so sad at the time, I felt so torn, and this is when I was busy with my university stuff. I know outwardly I don't look like someone who is sensitive. Actually, I'm a person who cannot really express my feelings in words, and at that time, I feel that no one can really understand me and I feel so depressed. I feel all the world is against me. I felt really bad.

And when my dad called me the next day and told me to just continue studying, I actually cried, and I was in the library at that time. I just couldn't hold on anymore, I really need someone to tell me that everything is alright, that I could make it. I felt relieved when my dad told me that.

Then, I received news that my dad was admitted to the hospital. First, I felt anxious, sad, scared, everything at once. But, luckily my dad is alright, nothing serious happened. Fiuh....

I don't know why but I felt scared that I won't graduate. Well, I have to do my best, and let's hope for the best....^^



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